new site. i was bored and seriously pissed off. there is seeeeeeeeriously corruption all around me right now& it's literally nauseating. i can't take it. i won't take it. i know im supposed to take this as an opportunity to be skillful, i promise to try, AND i won't if it means giving up. i cannot sit back and let the right wing extreme-upper class destroy the people that they are banking millions of dollars off of, just for supposedly caring about them. something is wrong when the people who don't pay for treatment can get it& the people who actually pay regularly for treatment cannot. i agree that something needs to be done for the welfare of those who cannot afford medical/mental treatment AND i do not agree with the way in which we are currently handling the situation. there needs to be basic healthcare for all. period. filthy rich; dirt poor; everywhere in between. im not talking communism here, don't get excited people, but rather protection for each individual and our society as a whole. when the poor can't pay their hospital bills, and the laws are set in place so that payment can't be enforced, and the hospital are losing money fast, and they don't want to get off their lazy asses to find a way and fix the debt problem, who are they gonna cut? the programs that do pay, the workers who do make ends meet, the programs that aren't considered as important, although in reality they're saving lives week after week? yeah, well it seems ridiculous, and unfortunately ridiculous is no longer the exception, it's the rule. it really makes me want to vomit. that in a MENTAL HEALTHCARE SYSTEM, of all places such ignorance and callousness can be applied. this entire situation is counter-productive to the point of even HAVING a mental healthcare system, especially one with such excellent programs like DBT. Dr. Adam Payne and Dr. Byrnes are too of the most insightful, intelligent, educated, honest and genuinely caring people i have ever had the privilege to be in contact with. both of them have taught me things in the last few months/weeks that i never could have taught myself in a lifetime. and it's not even as if either of them isn't well-liked to say the least. our journey is nowhere close to over, but every week i have the security in knowing that no matter what, even if i can't handle it, there are people who can help me to be able to. People who are always on-target and who always deal in compassion. even in their times of trouble, my doctor's are still role models for me, and the fact that this has remained true through this entire ordeal makes me nothing less then proud of them, if anything it makes me respect them even more. i want the opportunity to learn from them, i know that they can help me, they can help me help myself. this program is invaluable, and it is one of the most under-developed, important and potentially life-saving programs that our society has to offer adolescents. if this doesn't change we are going to lose something that has truly benefited so many people before we even introduce it into our community. this program needs to grow and allowing lij to destroy it like this is to ruin our chances of helping our own. it isn't only my group and i that this affects, it's all the adolescents and adults that are currently in dbt, all past member of dbt, all of the tons of people on the waiting list to get into dbt, and especially those suffering in our community that don't even know dbt exists. this is our problem and i personally am NOT taking this lying down.